My First Real Submissive Experience

Today was the first time in my life I had this kind of sex. I am writing this journal after a night of in explicit debauchery. I arranged to meet with Jordan at his apartment in Ottawa. One of his partners, Aaron, also joined us for the night. I left my home after being all prepped and a tiny bit nervous. The weather was calm and serene, it did not feel cold. Great evening for a March day. In about half an hour, I reached his apartment. He buzzed me in. Upon unlocking the door, I find them talking to someone over FaceTime.

I share a glance with Aaron. This is the first time I met him. Jordan and I have met a couple of times before. However, this is going to be the first time I have sex with Jordan properly, or as he likes to call it- 'play'. I stroll in the living room waiting for them to finish the call. The apartment is like any other one-bedroom apartment here in the city, however it feels quite spacious and decently furnished. The lightning is done very well. As soon the call ends, Jordan comes and takes off my sweatshirt then flips me upside down to remove my trousers. After a little struggle, my skinny pants are off. Well, when I was just outside his door, he asked me to strip for them. Since they were occupied on the call, I did not follow the instructions. Also, I failed to wear a jockstrap. In my defence, I was running late to catch the bus. I did look, but couldn't find the jockstraps I was hoping to wear. Instead, I put on my tight sexy gay briefs. He strips me naked in no time.

Now that I am standing in their living room in nothing but my ankle white socks. Jordan comes and orders me to be on my knees. His huge cock is in front of my face. I put it in my mouth, and it is so big, I struggle to breathe instantly. The dick is hitting the back of my throat, and he is shoving my head into it further. Not even a minute in, and I am gagging already. I can hear Aaron chuckle as I'm making those retching noises. Jordan is being rough. He does not do vanilla. I am gagging so hard that I'm afraid I might throw up my meal I had this afternoon. A few times I had to pull away or else there would have been a mess. He is putting a leather collar around my neck and it is tight. Then he goes to add a chained leash to the collar. Next, he laid back on the extended couch with his upper back to the support, and my lips servicing his cock. And the two of them are making out while I'm being called a fag. Pulling on the leash to keep my head in his sausage factory. Now I get flipped with my head towards the edge, and I am being face fucked hard and lubricated fingers probing my ass. As I'm gasping for air, my squeals are amusing them. Had to struggle free from the forced face fucking a few time for my own sake. I am asked to turn with my hole facing his dick while he is standing on the base of the couch. My head is pushed down and ass raised to level so that my master can put it inside me. With little warm up, the hunk of junk slid in. The pace picked up really quickly. My arched back, raised ass is getting fucked, and I am moaning and saying things like 'yes please', ' oh yes', 'fuck' indicating the pleasure I am feeling. He does not like me making so much noise, and he grabbed my underwear from the floor and stuffed my face in a jiffy. It was hot and rough.

Post some anal thrusting; I am made to be on all four and follow the leash held by my dominant top. We come in front of a full body mirror, and with my head pressed to the floor and my curved ass eagerly waiting to be pounded. I can feel the leash pull getting tight, making breathing harder while my mouth is stuffed with my own briefs. He begins to pound me and I am watching getting fucked mercilessly. I believe it was rush of being dominated (i yearned for it), the hard poundings and especially the deprived oxygen levels that made me feel like I was gonna pass out any moment. The last memory I have is trying to signal him to stop before fainting. I feel it was very momentarily as I open my eyes to see I am still being fucked. When I told them I think I passed out for a bit, he said, it doesn't matter, you have no choice but to get fucked. Fuck it was an exhilarating experience and felt amazing though it was bit scary at the same time. 

At this point, Aaron's feet are in my face and Jordan tells me to lick them. I was being a little hesitant as feet are not my fetish, so I started to lick the top of the feet. After a couple remarks to suck the toes properly, he simply held my head and pushed my mouth in his foot. Three of his toes are inside my mouth! Certainly something I didn't imagine doing, but the feeling of submitting to your dom; the humiliation and physical abuse is a powerful state of mind for a sub. After the toe suckling and ass pounding on the floor; my face was in Aaron's hole. Boy that is one smooth hole with the ass lips staring back at me. I eagerly shoved my face in there and gave a pretty long anilingus session, while Aaron's rear end was getting taken care of by my hungry appendage, he got his mouth full with Jordan's dick. Then Jordan asks his partner whether he would like to sit on my face and at the same time suck his cock. I am pulled back to the couch with my back flat and face facing up to only see Aaron's hole cover my vision as well as cut off my air supply. We spend some time in this position. One little nuisance was my freshly trimmed beard as it was piercing his ass and I had to carefully maneuver my neck avoiding my chin area touching the body. 

 Aaron is comparatively quieter than me in bed or I'm just generally loud. When Jordan turned to his partner's ass; he was being caring and gentle. Checking on him as he enters his big dick in Aaron's tight wet hole. His hole hasn't loosen yet as I can hear his pain in taking the dick. They are working their into it and while I am suckling on Aaron's semi soft cock like an  helpless faggot. 

Now they decided to move things to the bedroom. I am in doggy style on the edge of bed and  the dick is hitting deep inside of me. They are ensuring that my both holes are being used well. I feel jealousy when Aaron is positioned beside me on the bed and Jordan is giving him a warm good fuck. Yes, I am a sub. My only role is to please my sir. He is fingering  my hole while he is humping him. My hole relaxes easily and my dom noticed that and nonchalantly ordered Aaron to try fist me. Given Aaron's smaller hands than Jordan's I did not put any sort of objection and was curious to see how it feels to have one's fist in me. I used poppers to relax my hole for the stretching to come.  I have only had my own fist inside of me till this day. As Aaron's hands made its way inside me, the sensation was amazing. Also, he seems to know his way around fisting holes. It was an immense pleasure with the fist eventually sliding in. I can now appreciate what good fisting is about; the ins and out of it. I have only been a fister in FF; being fisted made me relish the amazing sensations of hole stuffing.

Jordan left me with Aaron to enjoy fisting my open hole. Aaron seemed really impressed with my capabilities, and it made me feel like a great sub bottom. A while later, Jordan returns to the bedroom with another Asian guy named - Kerry. My first impression was it is so hot I am having a proper foursome. In a glimpse, I remembered that I have met this one before at a gay hosting. He didn't really remember me at all until I gave him some backstory. Anyways, it seems like he is another Asian boy toy of Jordan's who gets his affection and dick while I am laying there taking whips, and blows and ball slaps occasionally. It feels really submissive and the sense of being worthless is weirdly enjoyable in the context of playing in bed. After Kerry was fucked fair bit by Jordan, he moved back to Aaron's ass. And Kerry started fisting me. His fist felt a big rough and perhaps his fist was bigger as it really stretched on the insides. It felt great. The ass was loose and air farts were coming out. It feels amazing to get fisted on a whim. While Jordan was switching between his Asian twinks, I was meant to suck their cocks as they were pounded.

Being the lowest in the chain and literally buried under them and serving every one of them is part of being submissive and accepting the humiliations. I was hoping to ride Jordan more but he had other plans. Aaron brought a decent thick dildo and made it fit in my hole with little work. When I begged for the dom cock to be inside me again. I was so horny, courtesy of poppers (I think I took a bit too much..) Jordan's dick and the dildo were both inside me simultaneously. Since the ass was loose, I had the two in with ease. I was held on leash and hit from the back getting DP for a little while. The last act of this night was for me to serve Aaron with my mouth and tongue until he came. The clock was hitting quarter past 11 and I was asked to clean up and go. I felt like I could still have had so much more fucking. Even after three hours of rough fun, I was hungry and wished for more. The two of them seem to be spending the night there, cuddling with their dom after a night of fun sex. On the other hand, I jokingly suggested to go to Grindr to curb my hunger for cock. I feel the poppers made me hyper and I was considering getting fucked elsewhere. I was on cloud nine when I left his place with such a powerful experience and being powerless at the same time.  Well, I took my route home, and was still feeling jumpy from the poppers. Because of that, I did not fall asleep and ended up writing this story ;)