PainLove - Bk. 01 - Ch. 19-25

Chapter 19

Kim and Helena dressed like Rob in stockings, suspender belts, then their nightgowns. Together they headed to the dining room.

"I'll get something for us to eat. Rob, can you open a bottle of wine? I have some in the kitchen." Kim gestured toward the door.

As soon as Rob had followed her into the kitchen, Kim turned to him. "I saw you look to Helena as we talked. Don't worry, she isn't offended by what I say. She and I have been lovers for a long time. Perhaps we always will be. You didn't complicate things; I have her permission to fuck you whenever you and I want. She only requires us to be open about it. We won't have any secrets."

Rob wasn't too surprised by her confession, but he felt a pang of sorrow. It was a bit like Jenny, his ex-wife. He'd known she was bisexual, but now her interest in women was connected, in his mind at least, to his awful experience at Marion's house. Now he had Helena and Kim confirming they were lovers. Helena had him believing he was the one and only to her, in this moment he learned he was just her only male lover. The sense that Jenny had betrayed him reappeared. Helena had given him no reason to think she had lesbian tendencies. What's more, Helena had listened for hours as he spoke of his relationship with Jenny.

Was he making the same mistake again? The only difference was Helena and Kim were being open with him, while Jenny had never mentioned her lovers. He realized this circle of theirs had included sexual activity.

Rob chose a light-bodied red wine and opened it. He gathered three wineglasses and the bottle, put them on a tray. Kim added to the tray a plate with some cheese and bread and a few knives. He carried everything into the living room. There, Helena had some candles burning. With the curtains closed and the central heating on, the atmosphere was warmly intimate.

Helena spoke to him in a quiet voice. "I heard what Kim said to you. It's the absolute truth. We are lovers, we have been for years; I imagine you'd already surmised as much. We're both bisexual, both of us hurt by men in the past. When we saw you, we both realized we still like men, but they must not be the usual manly men. You have proven to be what we need, many times over.

"Carmen and Olga have had the same sort of experience with men, Olga suffered the worst, her ex beat her horribly, she's still recovering. We were all surprised you could have brought her her to an orgasm. We thought she might not let you."

"And Carmen? Is she also a lesbian?"

"We're bisexual, Rob, there is a difference. Carmen has been seriously let down a few times. Even after an engagement. That changes a woman. She was wounded like you, mentally. In fact, all of us are wounded one way or another."

"What about you?" Rob didn't really want to know. The more he learned the more disappointment he felt. Why had Helena not told him she was in a serious, long-term relation with Kim?

"You know my parents left me money, that's all my boyfriends seemed to care about. The moment I told a suitor there would be a prenuptial agreement, they quickly faded away. You didn't realize how wealthy I was until you saw the house, even then you couldn't believe it. You care about me, you actually don't want to deal with my money." She sighed. "Just as I don't want to deal with my money. You actually expected to take care of me, refusing to give up your job. You showed me your love was real. Even though you too had been hurt so much, still you gave your heart to me. And I already had fallen in love before you knew me. I remember telling you I had a private detective make inquiries. I had photos of you. Not for you, for myself: I knew the party at Marion's would be intimate and I wanted to make sure no harm would come to me.

"Then I met you in person. I was completely lost. I saw your unselfish behavior, you were there to please your wife and friends, with no hesitation whatsoever. You had so much love in you and yet you also seemed fragile in your French maid uniform. I wanted to take you to my home, right then. I thought I was reading Jenny correctly and I know Marion, her warning signals were plain. I was certain you were on you way to being hurt. And that's exactly what happened."

"Why didn't you rescue me, give me a clearer warning?"

"Would you have believed me? You had to learn yourself. But now I have you: I'll give you anything, everything, just stay with me the rest of your life. I couldn't bear to live without you." Helena's soft voice was in contrast to the passion of the words.

Rob was convinced, he gave Helen a kiss. "I never knew a relationship could be like this. Still, I'm not your only love."

Helena's reply was circumspect. "No, you aren't, but you're the only man I can love. You are my soul mate and you shall be my husband."

He took her in his arms. Helena had been honest to him after all, the only thing that hadn't been clear was that her circle were also her lovers. He imagined she didn't wish to hurt his feelings.

Kim coughed. "Lovebirds, I'm here."

Rob turned to her. "And I can never forget what you have done for me."

"Rob, I've already asked Kim to come and live with us, just like Jenny and Marion were planning, but Kim thinks also three is a crowd."

Kim shook her head. "I have a business here, not just any business. This town depends on me, I'm their only doctor."

"So visit when it suits you. Helena, if you're in need of a real female lover, you and Kim just do what you want to do, I understand completely."

"No," Helena said, "You are my greatest love. I'd prefer Kim and I make love with you present. I won't do anything without you."

Kim completely agreed. "Rob, don't be so amenable. The truth is, I'd want you to participate with us. Once you can't perform anymore, if we want to go on, we can give you a show. But you must be there. But Rob, one condition, you always must be dressed for the occasion. I mean I want you to in sexy lingerie, just as Helena and I will be."

Rob decided to be provocative. "So when you and Helena fuck and I haven't any life left in my dick, I must wear sexy clothing. Ah, I get it, you and Helena want to be served by a maid, suitably dressed."

Helena took him at his word. "Yes, Rob, that would be very nice. You see, Kim, how lucky I am with him. A friend and lover, soul mate, but also a servant and a sex toy."

Kim made a face. "I was already jealous, now it's getting worse."

Helena saw the mixed emotions on her friends face. "Oh, my dear, we won't neglect you. Just come and visit us as often as your practice lets you. You know how special you are to me." She winked. "I would love to play some games with you."

Kim' face brightened. "What kind of games are you referring to?"

"If Rob was a naughty girl, she would deserve a spanking. You're naughty Kim, now I think of it, more consistently naught than Roberta. You are a slut and must know your place. Yes, next time when I give Rob a spanking, I'll invite you."

"Mmm, I'm getting wet again." Kim leered. "I can't wait to be spanked."

"Could it be that something is burning in the kitchen?" Rob said. He wanted to change the subject. He had heard quite enough of this conversation and hurried towards the kitchen. Kim followed, opened the oven and retrieved the pie she'd put in to warm. She put the pie, plates and utensils on a tray. Rob carried the tray into the living room and served a simple meal.

Chapter 20

As they ate, Rob raised a question. "Kim, earlier you said I'm a typical sub. What makes you say it?"

"What, isn't it obvious?"

"I can't see myself from outside very well. Why don't you humor me?"

Kim thought for a minute. It struck Rob she had casually stated her impression of him but now it took some effort to put together a basis behind her conclusion.

"Well, look at how much time you spend giving oral sex to women." She turned to Helena with a laugh then turned back to Rob. "In fact, on one memorable occasion a lot of time on each of several women."

"That makes me submissive? You've never read Freud's theory of development, heard about oral people?"

"Well, you crossdress and you're quite open about it."

"Only because you've seen me in very private settings. Most crossdressers are just plain heterosexuals, I expect you know that. Further, right in with the vast majority, I don't go out in public and I never will."

"Well, you go over the bench for a paddling pretty willingly."

"I'm submissive just because I help women get turned on by hitting me? I put up with the pain because right afterward I get hot, hot sex with a woman who has relaxed her inhibitions. The day that isn't true is the end of any games for me." He paused, reflecting. "You know, I think by the time that weekend at Marion's began I already knew it wasn't going to work out; she had already proposed I should be a live-in slave when I was only doing each event for the reward. For ten years with Jenny before we got involved with Marion, it was just one of a variety of things we did to get each other turned on. The odd thing is, Jenny may claim to be a lesbian, but the sex with her was great. Marion, on the other hand, wanted a boy-toy, a sex-slave. I was never going to be reduced to that."

Rob could see Helena was enjoying watching Kim's discomfort at having her preconceptions deconstructed. It struck him Helena didn't recognize he was saying all this for her benefit. It was time for her to face a similar question herself. "Helena, why did you promise to Kim she could have sex with me whenever she wanted?"

"When did I say that?"

"I don't know, I only just found out tonight. Kim, didn't you say it to me, just an hour ago in the kitchen?"

Reluctantly, Kim nodded. Rob could see Helena was flustered, he could see by her reaction she'd made the promise.

"Helena, not two minutes ago you called me a servant and a sex toy. Let me tell you something: I am not a sex toy. I'll happily be your partner, I'll happily include others in sex with you, but the minute you just give me to a friend we are through. I am not a slave, not even a sex slave. Most especially I am not a sex toy you can pass around amongst to your friends. I decide who I have sex with, you do not decide for me.

"I won't do anything without your knowledge and consent. I won't. In contrast, you've already put me into something without my knowledge and consent. You most certainly cannot commit me to something I don't even know about."

He raised a hand for emphasis. "I will not honor a commitment to be there for your circle in two weeks. I'm sorry I must be so blunt to you about this, but tonight I've heard things, said quite casually, that I cannot not let pass unchallenged." He stood, walked to Helena, held out his hands to her. She put down her plate and took his hands. He raised her to her feet and put his arms around her.

"If you aren't foremost in this relationship, if you aren't the sole reason for this relationship, then it isn't a relationship I want. No one else is important to me, no one else gets to have me except for rare circumstances," he murmured in her ear as he held her close.

When they separated, she had tears in her eyes. "Rob, you gave me quite a scare when you started in on this, but you just said the sweetest thing to me. I am reminded how honest you are, the commitment you are making to me. I see I must do better myself, if I want to keep up with you, if I want to keep you."

They held each other for a long hug, then Rob helped Helena return to her seat.

"Well, there is more," Rob continued. "You've been asking me for months to leave my job in Oxford. I gave notice this week."

"Finally, you're giving up your job."

"Not quite. They weren't happy to see me go. To keep me, they offered a different sort of position. I'll be doing consulting, project work. I'll set my own hours, I should be able to work anywhere. I'll have a long conversation on the phone a few times a week. Once in a while it will be necessary for me to go spend a day or two in an exotic location, York or Coventry or the like."

"Can you move in with me right away, sell your Oxford place?"

"I have agreed to thirty days for my transition out; I must be in Oxford most of the coming month. They must find my replacement. Ideally I'll introduce the replacement to the most important people, give them all a smooth transition."

"You couldn't just quit?"

Rob tilted his head, surprised. "That wouldn't be professional."

Rob poured more wine, the atmosphere lightened. As they sipped and chatted, relaxing after the meal, Rob could see Helena looking at him frequently, the love she felt plain on her face. Finally, Helen put down her glass and stood. "Enough with this chit-chat, Rob, I've been thinking the whole evening about your dick and Kim's cunt. Right now I want to be filled by dick and eat pussy. Let's go upstairs."

Rob chuckled to himself when he heard Helena speak like that. She could be really horny and when that happened she wanted just one thing: his prick inside her. He didn't mind at all. In fact, as they were talking and eating, all three in just their lingerie, the talk sometimes made Rob get hard. His dick relaxed again; but each time he saw Helena or Kim provocatively widen their legs for him, giving him a good view to get him hard again.

The ladies were going up the stair. He put out the candles, got the bottle of wine and took a sip, straight from the bottle. When he arrived in the bedroom, he asked, "Anyone else want a sip of wine? I didn't bring the glasses with me."

Helena and Kim gave him no answer. Their nightgowns had been dropped to the floor. They sat on the edge of the bed, waiting for him. Their legs were spread as they fully exposed themselves to him. With lights on, Rob could admire Kim's nipple piercings; the gold rings glinted as she moved on the bed, inviting him to play with them.

He admired both of their bodies; Kim was younger than Helena, her breasts smaller and her waist more slender. But Helena could look wild, quite an animal in these situations. Her hair was a little out of order, the very image of "bedhead." To people who didn't know her, she was cool and reserved. To her social friends she maintained a certain detachment and only a privileged few knew how she could change into a furious sex animal, who wanted every hole filled at the same time and as often as she could.

As Rob and the very few within her circle knew, Helena was in fact insatiable.

It had all to do with her youth: her parents were very rich; she was the only heir of their family fortune. In public she always had to be the perfect lady. She had little freedom to explore sexually like other young women in modern times. So many potential lovers had been scared off by lawyers and private detectives, others she had scared off herself after the detectives reported back to her.

The only one who came through the investigation with no warning signals, the first in twenty-some years of investigating, was Rob. He wanted her for who she was and not the money that came with her. Helena attraction to Rob had initially been his loyalty. Being there, as a friend, lover and sparring-partner, she knew she might not be alone anymore. She had ideas for what else he might be for her, but his loyalty was essential, the foundation of their relationship.

She had begun pressing him to set a date for a marriage, persistently but gently. He had been so hurt emotionally, she reasoned, he should have put up little resistance to her advances. But Rob had been steadfast in wanting to wait, to get to know each other far better. Helena now wanted to have sex with him as much as possible. In part she wanted to compensate for all the years she couldn't find a boyfriend she could trust. In part because she was so very alone and needed an arm around her shoulder. She also wanted to seduce him into agreeing to a marriage.

As for sharing him sometimes with her intimate friends, Helena didn't have a problem with that; she benefited from it herself. Rob could do a lot, but not fill three holes by himself. Helena loved to eat pussy, especially with a dildo in her arse and Rob's dick in her cunt. She shivered with anticipation.

"Rob, please will you join us, lie down on the bed, forget the wine and let's make love. I need you and so does Kim," she whispered enticingly.

Rob lay down between two women, Helena immediately mounted him, grabbing his cock and guiding him inside her. At the same time Kim swung her leg over him, facing toward Helena, lowering her cunt to his mouth.

Helena reached out both hands to take Kim's nipple ring between her fingers, pulling gently. In a soft, slow cadence she rode Rob's cock; she didn't want him to come too quickly. They had made love often enough she knew exactly how to postpone his climax to get more for herself.

Kim just wanted to be eaten and Rob did his best to satisfy her. He circled his tongue around her clit. He probed Kim with a finger, another finger teasing her arse. His other hand caressed Helena's leg.

All that could be heard were moans, groans and cries of pleasure. Kim came first. Her nipples were extremely sensitive with the attached rings. The occasional tug at clit-ring from Rob or Helena and Rob's tongue turning and pushing on her clit, gave her so much pleasure she rocked and trembled over her whole body.

Rob and Helena came almost together, their level of intimacy made it common for them to climax together.

With a sigh Helena laid herself next to Rob.

Kim moved over to bend down to Helena's cunt. She licked Rob's and Helena's juices out of her. She smiled to Rob. "I'm a pervert, I know, but I love the taste of cum."

She laid herself next to Rob and started fondling with his dick.

"It will take some time to get ready again," Rob sighed, but what has said wasn't completely accurate, his dick started to become firm again.

"Please, give me some time to recover," he begged, amused.

Kim pretended not to hear him and took him in her mouth.

When she had Rob fully erect again, Kim swung over him, slowly sliding her moist cunt down over his throbbing dick. She went up and down, setting the rate, sometimes slow and sometimes fast. All Rob had to do was enjoying the ride. Helena climbed on, settling over his mouth. Rob laid back and pushed his tongue inside her and started licking with fast and firm strokes. He used his hand to spread her lips. Her clit was stiff so he ran his tongue across it, then he fully attacked her clit. Back and forth, side to side, quick, slow, quick. He sucked gently at her clit, keeping his tongue moving. He could feel Kim tightening around his dick, giving him a very pleasant squeeze. Helena and Kim both moaned; all three were panting heavily. Then the release came: Helena let out a squeal and pushed her cunt against his nose, grabbing him by the hair. Kim's cunt muscles clamped down hard as she came. Helena's cunt juices flowed over Rob's cheeks and chin. He tried to lick her clean, but couldn't reach her very well. Finally he gave up and enjoyed this moment: two lovely ladies straddling his body.

They climbed off him and slid down the bed to lie beside him.

"You didn't come, Rob?" Helena asked.

"No, but I didn't expect to."

As promised they all slept in their stockings and nightgowns, Rob in the middle. After all that activity it didn't take him long to fell asleep, between the two women he loved most.

After breakfast Sunday morning, Helena and Rob left Kim. Kim was saddened by their departure. Rob held Kim a time in his arms.

"I can't let you go, it's so hard, now that I've felt what it could be between the three of us." Kim sniffled a bit.

"Dearest, why don't you come to our house this evening?" Helena asked.

Kim refused again, she had her practice and responsibilities starting early Monday. But she said she would visit soon.